Stand Beside Me

Stand Beside Me
Performed By: Jo Dee Messina
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-HwJctTzlU

He left me cryin' late one Sunday night outside of Boulder
He said he had to find himself out on the road
I guess when love goes wrong
You've gotta learn to be strong
So I worked two jobs And I moved three times
I ended up south of Memphis, workin' down in Riverside
I may not be so lucky in love
But the one thing I'm sure of

I want a man that stands beside me
Not in front of or behind me
Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me
And I'll give all the love in my heart
Stand beside me
Be true, don't tell lies to me
I'm not lookin' for a fantasy
I want a man that who stands beside me

I didn't expect to see him, one hot July morning
His hair was longer but his eyes were the same old blue
He said, "I've missed you for so long. Oh baby, what can I do?"
I said, "I want a man that stands beside me
Not in front of or behind me
Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me
And I'll give all the love in my heart."

It's hard to Tell him, "No" when I want him so bad
But I've got to be true to my heart This time
I'm not lookin' for a fantasy
I want a man who stands beside me
I want a man Who stands beside me

Stand beside me........ Stand beside me........

Okay...I'm feeling much better this evening than compared with yesterday. Work was long but it was an excellent distraction today. Plus someone gave me some extra attention at work today - that I just happened to enjoy very much. Plus I got a little attention from my T-pain song friend. That's a future post though... :-)
I do want to find someone that stands beside me. I want to share that special feeling and share a life together with someone. I think we can all relate to that! :-)

In God's Hands

In God's Hands
Nelly Furtado & Keith Urban
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu0vMd-bnsQ

I looked at your face
I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time I,
I saw that you couldn’t care less about what you do
You couldn’t care less about the lies
You couldn’t find the time to cry

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us
And now our loves floating out the window
Our loves floating out the back door
Our loves floating up in the sky
In heaven where it began
Back in God’s hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it’s the end of the day
We gave a lot But it wasn’t enough
We got so tired Like we just gave up

Now our loves floating out the window
Our loves floating out the back door
Our loves floating up in the sky In heaven where it began
Back in God’s hands
Back in God’s hands

We didn’t respect it
We went on neglected
We didn’t deserve it
But I never expected this

Our loves floated out the window
Our loves floated out the back door
Our loves floated up in the sky
To heaven it’s part of the plan
It’s back in god’s hands
Back in god’s hands
Oh, It didn’t last It’s a thing of the past
No, I didn’t understand Oh, Just what we had
Oh, I want it back Just what we had I want it back Oh, just what we had

You know life can be kind of funny...just when you think all is going great and you could totally be on cloud nine... well oops then you fall off that cloud and it knocks the breath out of you - Hard! Well that was sort of me today. I've been having a Lot of fun recently! Meeting a lot of new people and just having a lot of fun goofing around at work. Well I got the wind knocked out of me this evening. :/ I was on the phone with my Mom when she says "You'll never guess who asked me about you." I had no clue. When she said the name I don't know what happened - it was a wave of emotions/memories that were so repressed that all fell out at once. My poor Mom had no clue what was going on. Not today or even way back then and to be honest the same could be said of myself. I was just as confused today as I was way back then. She thought my phone had cut out on her. She was like are you there? I was in a series of flashbacks of memories with a certain someone....
A certain someone that was my world. Did this person know how much i cared? Ummm looking back probably so. Maybe they sort of had the same feelings towards me. I was so infatuated back then i probably wouldn't have cared if they had or not. This was right around the time I graduated high school - I remember them and the fun we had goofing off, acting like complete idiots, and the talks that would go on forever and day. Why did it end? That's a very good question. Maybe they actually did care. Maybe that scared them like it did me at the time. Maybe they were afraid of what other's would say. Maybe that's what made them totally just up and leave and pretty much cease all existence in my life. No phone calls - no emails - no post cards. Nada -nothing! Well they had a few reasons to leave that i know besides me... but I'll never understand why everything completely stopped.
Well as my Mom continues to tell me about running into them she tells about their wife and kids and some more yada yada. I was touched that they still remembered me. They asked about me. They wanted to know where i was and what i was doing. Do I expect to hear from them anytime soon? Umm i don't think I'm gonna hold my breath. Oh wait... I'm sure they want some free tickets so maybe so. ;-)
I have rambled so much on this I know. Am I over this person? - Yes without a doubt but it was still just so weird after it had been pushed way back into the memory bank to totally come rushing up again... I think I need to go get some happiness back....
There's a certain T-Pain song that I'm starting to really love. Maybe i should go and try and see if that will make my evening any better.

Change It

Change It
Written & Performed By Dolly Parton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q97cGo5sCDo

Hello…I know you’ve got a world of problems.
And you think you can’t do anything to solve ‘em;
But I am here to tell you you can.

Somethin’ got you down, got you chained and bound
Well break it. (Face it)
If you’ve built a wall and know it needs to fall,
Then shake it. (Replace it)
Somethin’ that you know is dammin’ up the flow,
Tear the damn dam down.
Let me explain it.
If you don’t take the reigns, it’s going to stay the same
Nothin’s gonna change if you don’t change it.

Let’s do this!
Don’t let fear and doubt leave you empty and without.
You got somethin’ on your mind that’s naggin’ all the time,
Well nix it. (Resist it)
Somethin’ in your life that just ain’t sittin’ right,
Well -fix it. (Just kick it)
If you’ve lost your place somethin’ in your face
If there’s an empty space and you can’t name it.
That feelin’ in your gut that’s got you in a rut,
You’re made of better stuff and you can change it.

Change it,
You don’t want your little light to never shine.
Change it,
Turn it up on bright and get your goals in line.
There’s a great new world out there
For those who dare to claim it.
A better day is on the way and only you can change it.

Cha-cha-change, cha-cha-change, change it!
No dream you can’t accomplish, no mountain you can’t climb.
So activate your love and faith, you can change.
Stand up, grab a’hold, give everything you’ve got.
When the road is dark and cold, walk on fearing not.
Get your life in order, clean house and rearrange it.
Raise your voice and make a choice
Committed now to tear the damn dam down
And change it.
Change it.

Oh wow!! To me if this song doesn't inspire you to change it - then I don't know what will!! :-) Maybe it's because I'm a little partial to the words of wisdom from Miss Dolly.
She seems to hit the nail on the head a lot in this wonderful song!
We can complain and gripe all day; but until we do something about whatever is bothering us - it is NOT going to change. Granted not everything is going to be easy but with a little love, determination, and perseverance we can overcome a lot of things that do bother us.
Don't sit back and let others run over you or your dreams. Unless you get up and start doing something about it - nothing is going to change!
So get up and change it!!

I'm Movin On

I'm Movin On
Performed By The Rascal Flatts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1bxlDAjGCo


I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see that life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarentees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in every one's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

Moving on.... it is so much easier said than done. I have loved this song for quite sometime but could think of no better time than to use it now. I feel like I am moving on in so so many ways. I am actually learning to be at peace with me. I am content with that.
Let's take parts of this song... I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong.
I love my hometown. It is forever dear to me but I sadly had to bid it goodbye. It wasn't where I needed to be right now. To me this was a major decision. I am very close to my family. To be able to do things that I want to do and be the person that I want to be I had to leave. I really didn't have another choice.
On other notes of moving on... well I hope some forgiveness does find me down this road too.
As I sit and reflect on a few certain things. I have moved on. How do you know what you are supposed to do after that point?? I guess that advice would maybe be given by someone else. lol

Run

Run

As Performed By Leona Lewis
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n0rjfGvwMdE

I'll sing it one last time for you

Then we really have to go

You've been the only thing that's right

In all I've done

And I can barely look at you

But every single time I do

I know we'll make it anywhere

Away from here

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear

To think I might not see those eyes

Makes it so hard not to cry

And as we say our long goodbye

I nearly do

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even even (if you cannot hear my voice)

I'll be right beside you dear (yes oh dear)

Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

Run - oh my that's what I feel like I am doing sometimes.
Life is filled with choices. I'm choosing to run and follow some new dreams.
It's not always an easy thing to do that.
Hopefully I am making the right decisions.

Johnny And June

Johnny And June
By: Heidi Newfield
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6-4irHfExI

Oh there's something 'bout a man in black,
Makes me want to buy a cadillac,
Throw the top back,
And roll down to Jackson town,
I wanna be there on the stage with you,
You and I could be the next rage to,
Hear the crowd roar,
Make 'em want more
Kick the footlights out

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin' with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
'Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you're gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June

I wanna hold you baby right or wrong,
Build a world around a country song,
Pray a sweet prayer,
Follow you there,
Down in history,

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin' with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
'Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you're gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June

Like Johnny and June,
More than life itself,
No-one else,
This endless promise,
They don't make love like that anymore,
Is that too much to be askin' for,

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin' with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
'Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you're gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June,

Like Johnny and June

And when we're gone,
There'll be no tears to cry,
Only memories of our lives,
They'll remember, remember,
A love like that.


Okay...I sort of just discovered this song this weekend... I think I'd heard it or part of it before, but really hadn't payed any attention to it until... I heard Heidi singing this at the Country Music Festival Sunday night. Something about hearing something like 40,000 people singing along with this song just touched me...

I want a love like Johnny and June too. I think I'm really ready for that in my life. I know I have had my heart broken a few times; but I want someone to love. I know I'm probably being a little unrealistic but I want to find my prince charming. I want to find someone that I can love and share a life with. I want us to build a life together. This song just says it so perfect. Like it says... they don't make love like that anymore... Is it to much to ask for?? I want someone that it can be forever with. Call me a crazy dreamer...but I'm hopeful.

Somewhere Down The Road

Somewhere Down The Road
Performed By: Faith Hill

So much pain and no good reason why
You cried until the tears run dry
Nothing else can make you understand
The one thing that you held so dear
Is slipping from your hand

And you say
Why, why, why
Does it go this way
And why, why, why
And all I can say is

Somewhere down the road
There'll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Though we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will have the answers
At the end of the road

Yesterday I thought I'd seen it all
I thought I'd climbed the highest wall
But now I see that learning never ends
And all I know to do is keep on walking
'Round the bend

Singing
Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why
And all I can say is

Somewhere down the road
There'll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Though we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers
At the end of the road

Somewhere, somewhere down
And somewhere down the road
There'll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Though we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
They will have the answers
At the end of the road

They will have the answers
At the end of the road
Somewhere down the road, yeah
Somewhere, somewhere
Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere down the road

Why, why, why
There will be arms reaching, down the road
Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere

Life is weird... maybe that's just me but to me it is. Sometimes things just have ways of working themselves out... God is in control - that is for sure. It's just truly amazing how he works sometimes. Sometimes when you think all hope is lost - something magical truly happens. Sometimes things that we think are going to happen wind up not - yet then we realize later it was truly for our good. I am just trying to appreciate that and let that all sink in at the moment.