In God's Hands

In God's Hands
Nelly Furtado & Keith Urban
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu0vMd-bnsQ

I looked at your face
I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time I,
I saw that you couldn’t care less about what you do
You couldn’t care less about the lies
You couldn’t find the time to cry

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us
And now our loves floating out the window
Our loves floating out the back door
Our loves floating up in the sky
In heaven where it began
Back in God’s hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it’s the end of the day
We gave a lot But it wasn’t enough
We got so tired Like we just gave up

Now our loves floating out the window
Our loves floating out the back door
Our loves floating up in the sky In heaven where it began
Back in God’s hands
Back in God’s hands

We didn’t respect it
We went on neglected
We didn’t deserve it
But I never expected this

Our loves floated out the window
Our loves floated out the back door
Our loves floated up in the sky
To heaven it’s part of the plan
It’s back in god’s hands
Back in god’s hands
Oh, It didn’t last It’s a thing of the past
No, I didn’t understand Oh, Just what we had
Oh, I want it back Just what we had I want it back Oh, just what we had

You know life can be kind of funny...just when you think all is going great and you could totally be on cloud nine... well oops then you fall off that cloud and it knocks the breath out of you - Hard! Well that was sort of me today. I've been having a Lot of fun recently! Meeting a lot of new people and just having a lot of fun goofing around at work. Well I got the wind knocked out of me this evening. :/ I was on the phone with my Mom when she says "You'll never guess who asked me about you." I had no clue. When she said the name I don't know what happened - it was a wave of emotions/memories that were so repressed that all fell out at once. My poor Mom had no clue what was going on. Not today or even way back then and to be honest the same could be said of myself. I was just as confused today as I was way back then. She thought my phone had cut out on her. She was like are you there? I was in a series of flashbacks of memories with a certain someone....
A certain someone that was my world. Did this person know how much i cared? Ummm looking back probably so. Maybe they sort of had the same feelings towards me. I was so infatuated back then i probably wouldn't have cared if they had or not. This was right around the time I graduated high school - I remember them and the fun we had goofing off, acting like complete idiots, and the talks that would go on forever and day. Why did it end? That's a very good question. Maybe they actually did care. Maybe that scared them like it did me at the time. Maybe they were afraid of what other's would say. Maybe that's what made them totally just up and leave and pretty much cease all existence in my life. No phone calls - no emails - no post cards. Nada -nothing! Well they had a few reasons to leave that i know besides me... but I'll never understand why everything completely stopped.
Well as my Mom continues to tell me about running into them she tells about their wife and kids and some more yada yada. I was touched that they still remembered me. They asked about me. They wanted to know where i was and what i was doing. Do I expect to hear from them anytime soon? Umm i don't think I'm gonna hold my breath. Oh wait... I'm sure they want some free tickets so maybe so. ;-)
I have rambled so much on this I know. Am I over this person? - Yes without a doubt but it was still just so weird after it had been pushed way back into the memory bank to totally come rushing up again... I think I need to go get some happiness back....
There's a certain T-Pain song that I'm starting to really love. Maybe i should go and try and see if that will make my evening any better.